Arrggghhhh

Sitting in my sitting room with Alex and our cats, absolutely wide awake and feeling wired to fuck despite knocking in a respiredol quitiepine, diazapam and 2 lorazepam, keep seeing figures walking accross the room, im freezing cold and keep getting wierd shivers throughout my body, as if something is walking through me or something. this is horrendous, today wasn't too bad either, i actually got some stuff done and got out, bar the usual horrific trip to the supermarket again that had me freaked out. Everyone watching, judging againg, eyes jet black like a great white and seeing people behind me every time i glance in a mirror. I hope these risperidol work, and quick, its getting too much now, unrelenting hell that needs to stop. somehow.