Hello
Just a bit about being 'manic' as im feeling a bit like that today, i know i havent blogged for a while so a quick update. Im now on Venlafaxine which is a pretty powerful anti depressant, its some kind of miricle drug. Im not better, not by a hell of a long way but small steps are being taken, my highs and lows are further spaced out and dont last as long, they are still pretty intense and im still no further on with the hallucinations but i can only go at the pace the illness allows.
Anywho, MANIA!
Im so happy today, Euphoric, high as a kite, like an ecstasy rush, a million things going on in my head, a million creative ideas, photographs? painting? songwriting? BLOGGING, i want to do it all, get out there and see the world, experience stuff, enjoy every minute. Looking forward to the baby coming! Colours everywhere, brighter and better, seeing the world in a different light.
This is the good side of this illness, its a brief respite from the other type of mania that usually follows a day or 2 of this, and from the depression.
The other 'mania' that i get is a nervous mania, cant sit still, thoughts racing (not all good) aggitation, irritation and paranioa, its hell on earth but luckily it only seems to last for a day, day and a half, but it always follows the 'good' mania.
Anyways thats a quick update for now, best get back to work. i seem to get a lot done when i feel like this.
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